Some thoughts about this BC Family day from 2014: A Turning Point

A couple of days ago, I stumbled across this post on Facebook from 4 years ago. I had kept it private and never posted it publicly as I was going through a difficult time in my life. Looking back, I can see this as a start of a new journey that eventually brought me back from the wilderness into a loving and affirming church.

FYI: finances are stable and I’m happy with my job and life in general. I still have Kinks to work out but I am surrounded by great group of friends and supportive church families!

St. Andrews Wesley United Church and St Brigids Community


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February 10, 2014 11:14am

Some thoughts about this BC Family day…


I was looking forward to this extra long weekend, but as it turned out, I caught a death of cold which made me very unproductive. When I was finally able to go out with friends Saturday night, I somehow managed to lose my wallet and phone, something I still have to figure out how.

Though the day did end in a positive note, it still had me thinking about my life and priorities. Its Funny how a cold and a loss of a wallet and phone would get you all philosophical.

So it seems my life has been going in the wrong direction and now I have to figure out where to go from here.. The thoughts that are running through my head, Love, Life, Friends, Family, Finances, the list goes on. What have I missed? What have I forgotten to do? What have I over looked? What REALLY matters? A concerned stranger said that I looked sad and lonely. I never thought of that, but it does explain some of my actions and feelings lately. I do feel powerless, and afraid, unable to step out.

Anxiety.

Well I guess my first step is to talk to someone who will listen, which right now does not seem to be possible but I guess I’ll just keep looking until I find it. Then work through the fears and then take a few scary steps…

Toronto just may be in the works after all…
….though I have no clue what that looks like.

Then there is my finances.! I may have to ask my Dad to help me in that area as I am still having trouble. Time for a shake up and that’s scary in itself.

where to start…

how will I proceed?

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